I find that when I'm really tired, like eyes burning can't function tired, I like to begin to evaluate life. I can't tell you why this phenomena stands, but it does and thus you should probly go ahead and accept it. Today, for some reason, has been this kind of day. Upon much thought, I can easily conclude that at this point in my life, though at times my stubborness doesn't want to admit, I'm pretty dog-on blessed. I'm employed in jobs that, despite sometimes they make me wanna set my head on fire (just Lowes), are pretty good jobs. I have this beautiful girlfriend that blows me away with her sweet nature and growing desires to just follow God that I'm pretty much head-over-heels for. I have an amazing family, both my actual family and my friends whom I pretty much consider family. I just bought a guitar and I have a roof over my head. As you can see, I'm pretty blessed at this point in life. Flash forward to today. Today, I'm absurdely tired. The kind of tired that makes your eyes burn and you can't function quite right. I slept great last night, well, more like passed out. So why am I so tired? And why is this an ongoing fight?

Here's my thoughts. I had a talk with a good friend last week. She told that the closer I come to becoming full-time within ministry that I'm going to become under attack by the enemy. I'm starting to see it. In all the places I expected to see it and more. My girlfriend and I have been struggling with the whole purity thing. Not only does this take a toll on you emotionally, but it torchers you for the next month to find whether or not the simple "cross the line" mistake turns to a "you made a life changing" mistake. That said, we've been having trouble with that. It seems like I'm always frustrated about something. And thus, I come to you in this tired state of being to bring you this: No matter how bad I screw up, He still loves me. It amazing the way that He shows it...simple yet elegant. I love that God's watching my back.