California

Wow. It's been a super long time since I've used this crazy thing called "blogger". As I sit here watching the Legend of Zorro with the saucy Antonio Banderas, I'm reflecting on life since I wrote the last blog. Life has definitely changed, that's for sure. I'm now living in San Diego. I have broken up with the girl I thought that I was going to marry. I have began to fight the addictions that seem to snare me on a deeper, more spiritual level. I'm realizing more and more who God made me to be and how it relates to the world around me. I'm also realizing how easy it is to give in to spiritual attack, and how it only further proves that everything that is good and right in this world is not necessarily the easiest of things to do. For as hard as I wish to try, it seems like every time the chance arises, I'm giving in to the things that I know I shouldn't. Thankfully for the sake of myself and everyone on this planet, we have such a merciful God, who loves us more than we'll ever understand. I really just want to spend my life loving God. I so desire to be at the heart of our Father, and for all the times that I've messed up, He still loves me enough to make His presence undeniably known just to let me know that if all I desire is Him, it'll be ok. I love my Father so much and my heart feels peace knowing that He loves me more than I could ever imagine loving! Make my heart knew so that I may love you more and deeper than I knew I could live.