California

Wow. It's been a super long time since I've used this crazy thing called "blogger". As I sit here watching the Legend of Zorro with the saucy Antonio Banderas, I'm reflecting on life since I wrote the last blog. Life has definitely changed, that's for sure. I'm now living in San Diego. I have broken up with the girl I thought that I was going to marry. I have began to fight the addictions that seem to snare me on a deeper, more spiritual level. I'm realizing more and more who God made me to be and how it relates to the world around me. I'm also realizing how easy it is to give in to spiritual attack, and how it only further proves that everything that is good and right in this world is not necessarily the easiest of things to do. For as hard as I wish to try, it seems like every time the chance arises, I'm giving in to the things that I know I shouldn't. Thankfully for the sake of myself and everyone on this planet, we have such a merciful God, who loves us more than we'll ever understand. I really just want to spend my life loving God. I so desire to be at the heart of our Father, and for all the times that I've messed up, He still loves me enough to make His presence undeniably known just to let me know that if all I desire is Him, it'll be ok. I love my Father so much and my heart feels peace knowing that He loves me more than I could ever imagine loving! Make my heart knew so that I may love you more and deeper than I knew I could live.

the world in which we live…

I know that it's been quite a while since i've written anything…but recently, despite having numerous things that i could write about, i've chosen to remain silent. today that has changed. today, 32, or at least last time i heard a number it was 32, students were shot and killed today at Virginia Tech. they say that even more were injured, but i've not heard of a number being released in relation to how many were wounded. what has our society come to? they say that they believe that the shooter was looking for his girlfriend and at roughly 7:15 this morning, the first shots were fired. my heart broke today when i heard about the shooting. who of us has the right to take another human's life? i guess my ultimate question would be what the young man who did the shooting was thinking as he went through with all this. what could have happened that he would have thought that the only way to deal with it would be to kill? and as i began to process all that had happened, the news said that the police were currently trying to contact the student's next of kin. i think that the word "kin" bothers me a little. i think that using kin instead of family in a way sort of removes us from having to think about how horrible it would be to hear that someone we love more than we love ourselves has just been unjustly taken. then i wondered if anyone had ever listened to the person who did the shooting…if he felt comfortable sharing the hard to share things with anyone. i wonder if he tried to call someone before he did concluded that what he did was the thing to do. in today's society, we stress the art of individuality and the science to seclusion more than we stress the difficulty of community. think of how dramatically different life would look if we all lived in community. think of how loved you would feel if you called someone that just wanted to listen when you just wanted to be heard. one idea can change the world, but only if the world listens.

i don't think i know anyone in virginia…and the people that read this blog i know are very few and far between. but just in case someone stumbles across this, i just want to let it be known: i'm hear to listen. my advice is usually very little if anything at all, but i would love to listen to your story, your hurts, your scars, your anything. my heart breaks for those without anyone to listen, and i'm here to tell you that i will listen to you.

Here we go…

So this is 2007…looks promising. I'm hoping for the best on this one. I have no idea what this year will bring, and everything at first glance looks not very fun. Big decisions are on the horizon…life-changing things that I don't know what to do with or about. I've started going to the gym again. I shouldn't have stopped. But that's a story for another day. What I really want to talk about today is a couple things that bother me.

Example: Ice on cars. Let me be more specific. Ice on cars that deem it necessary to go on the highway. At first glance, this is no big deal. But lets look just a hair closer, shall we? Let's say that it's a beautiful day. That the proverbial birds are chirping and that skies are clear. But recently, there had been a series of storms come through that had frozen over and left ice on cars. Now, let's just say that you're driving home from a good day at the gym and you're noticing the beauty in everything and waiting to hear the voice of your beautiful girlfriend of which you haven't heard in some time. Then, out of nowhere, you see something flying right at your head and SMACK, something's hit the windshield. Well, needless to say, you're a little shaken up as you begin looking in your mirrors to see what hit you and you're checking the windshield to make sure that you're not going to die driving 65mph trying to get home…and then you realize that ice from the car in front of you has slid off it's back end and clocked you nearly in the head...

I know what you're thinking. "Nahum, you're silly. Ice doesn't fall off while you're driving." But let me make a case for my arguement. When water reaches a temprature below 32℉, it freezes…pretty common knowledge. But I move that when water reaches temperatures above 32℉, it unfreezes. I say that when water begins to unfreeze, that the part of it that has unfrozen provides enough lubrication that the then thawing piece of ice can now fly off of your car whilest you are going down the road at 65mph.

I know that it's inconvenient, but please, knock the ice off of your car...save an accident.